A compilation of 4-track recordings from my first (you guessed it) two years in the south (1996-1998.) Most songs are recorded on a real drum set with all the charm and personality that a 4-track, a Shure 57, and a beginner's drum set (complete with TWO cracked cymbals) all packed into a 9 x 9 bedroom can offer.
1. Calling Clifford Miracle
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show me the way out of this place
i'm slowly going crazy insane
my strength flows freely somewhere
i haven't found it but i don't care
this really should be bothering me
this is what i call my life
and it's so hard to be me today
so who said violence ain't the answer
to problems left undone
you know i don't know what that means
clifford
this really should be bothering me
this is what i call my life
and it's so hard to be me today
i need some time to get away
to be somewhere and nowhere all at once
find the place where i should go
and it's so hard to be me don't you know clifford |
2. Fire Fly
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just tell me i'm crazy
that's all i need to know
tell me i'm here forever
because there's no other place to go
tomorrow holds the same things
that today had the nerve to show
and the fire flies fly away
it must feel good to have some place to go
it seem there's no hope of living
that explains everything
i know it's wrong i know i'm strong
but that's not how i'm feeling
and the fire flies light my way
to a better place than this
because tomorrow holds the same things
that today had the nerve to show |
3. Becomes The Wind
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how can this be
with such mentality
to wake up and find
that you haven't lost your mind
cry ten tears
and let it go
maybe tomorrow
maybe tomorrow
bills and debts piled
priorities filed
and nothing really matters anyway
fall ten floors
and laugh with me
it'll rain when the concrete bleeds
left here to die
and it's no use to cry
i'm probably better off alive
sun is burning
the scorching heat
attack at once
and then retreat
run into the sunset again
i've lost that loving feeling again
traitor lies and becomes the wind
never leaving home again |
4. Generations' Proof
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so show me what you can do
to try and change my opinion of you
feelings so deep about nothing at all
millions of caring eyes
just a little girl
with the weight of the world
and the world sheds a tear or two
i'll tell you i care and smile
and i might believe it's true
so cry for me awhile
there's so much left for you to prove
such grown up things
yet so juvenile
pretending you have to fake that smile
generations' proof
too much to lose
can't cry again
faking it again
i can see how hard it must be
i can see straight through
so shallow i can see
the bottom of your pool
good luck to you |
5. Olive Drab
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it's bed time for you my little brown shoe
as we walk on through the doorway
there's trouble inside but well never decide
if it's real or of the sales lady
there's two wooden fellows the african fellows
in the lobby there here where i linger
there's trouble inside but well never decide
if it's real or only a glimmer
this can not go on never
vision unblurred by forever
it will make a sound a most original sound
like the wind rushing through the pine trees
it's an olive drab world and it's fun for the girls
bring the wife and the kids well go hunting
there's only one prize it's your very own eyes
it's an optically illusive vacation
there's trouble inside but well never decide
if it's real or finally ending
this can not go on never
vision unblurred by forever
it's an olive drab world and it's fun for the girls
bring the wife and the kids we'll go hunting
there's only one prize it's your very own eyes
it's an optically illusive vacation |
6. Mosquitos Bite
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earlier tonight a mosquito flew in my eye
after i swatted him away he came back again to say
when he came back he landed on my back
he plunged his needle in and took some blood
this time i just played along
i've got enough to go around
i've got enough blood to go around
don't you lay a hand on me
i'll show you what i want you to see
i'm tired of being shooed away
i've finally got the nerve to say
don't lay a hand on me
earlier tonight the glimmer fell from my eye
every ounce of energy blew away
soon i realized several hours had passed by
i'd had made it through made it to another year
with fire he drew the life from me
my eyes are too red to see
he drained me but he's full to the brim
someone else's cup runneth over again |
7. Bronzed Styler
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you cut me
with a knife that you've been sharpening your whole life
and you tore me
i guess it's still not quite as sharp as you'd like
well i don't know if i can even carry
my body weight anymore
and i know now that i could never care
about this life anymore
i hope you
someday will climb inside my head and look around
you told me
something i should remember for the rest of my life but i forgot
and i need to find whatever it is
that i'm looking for
and i need to buy whatever it is
that i'm working toward |
8. Oi-ho
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i just felt it again
like i could float away
and it's times like these
that make it hard to live in today
it's just the mood
a feeling in the air
just to let you know
exactly where you are
on the average there's no average day
it comes and it goes as it pleases
and i'm left smiling still unclear
there's so much life in just one year
i'm reliving it wrong
it was never so nice
i'm feeling so strong
i can't believe i've survived it twice
it's just strange how it started
it was us versus two
just look where we are now
only the pain is the same
only my memory's stained
only the pain remains
and now for the happily ever after |
9. Enemy
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born to die in a smoky room
room to breathe room to be
aren't you a bit like me
can't you be more like me
enemy
broken windows
i scream so hard i can't see anything
inside of me trust is broken
enemies are born
yesterday or today
such a blur these days
you're quite a bit like me
you should be more like me
enemy
twice cried
broken dreams broken twice
so lay down your head
and whine for me
in a secret spot
that i keep to myself
you can't see
what's become of me
the heart of my problem
my soul
it just goes to show
if you don't know
where to go
then shut the hell up
enemy
broken seeds
will grow to hate everything
blind to light literally
everything enemy |
10. (Big Rock) Wax Moth
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fish are swimming and trends are spinning
in my head there's no end to it
life is too short to miss the excitement
and watch it all fade away
just wait and see what becomes of me
inside people love to stare at you
falling clumsily around
inside people would love to share with you
if only you were inside
back home people are cloudy opaque dark and thick
back home people have faded
what have i seen in the chlorine dream
the light is burning wearing down wearing down
humanity's learning to burn it down burn it down
fish are floating and twins are sinning
in my head theres no end to it
just wait and see who depends on me
yesterday was full of reruns
i think i've seen this one before
stand up like erector
tear it down run it down
tonight you remind me of mean old black beard
pillaging my soul
i'll stand my ground if the ship goes down
fish are living and friends are giving
in my head theres no end to it
just wait and see don't ever question me |
11. Riddle Me This
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you should be glad that there's no response to be had
i know you wouldn't like what you've got coming
i'll tell you all about the things that you want to know
i know you'll never like what you've got coming
you're trapped and left alone here with everyone i know
you should be glad that there's no pride to be had
i know you wouldn't like what you've got coming
you're trapped and left alone here with everyone i know
you should be glad that there's no answers to be had
i know you wouldn't like the ones you've got coming
you see it's only me i'm the one without answers
you know i never liked the ones i had |
12. Parting Gift
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thinking of nothing but the loving
or thinking of nothing at all
i forget what that was all about
but i sure enjoyed the show
surprise there's a prize every time
here's your prize she's not your bride
surprise were you surprised
you can make a rhyme every time
everyday's a holiday
and every meal's a feast
there's no time to do it right
there's only time to do it twice
surprise i'm your prize
it's been a long long time
you have been in the wrong
tell me decide for me
explain to me why i've been where i've been
it all comes down to this my friend |
13. Paradox
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reach up and smite the stone
show me a mind of your own
show me a face that's true
show me what it is that's you
i'm feeling besides inside
and i feel alive for the first time
i'm looking at you i'm not so bad
your face and smile are wrong
you've practiced in the mirror too long
he's taken an interest he's taken an interest
i'm feeling besides inside
and i feel alive for the first time
i'm looking at you i'm not so bad
what a pair
out of thin air
what a pair
into thin air |
14. Sink or Swim
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sink or swim
that's what i hear from him
that advice landed me here again
but i swim
it feels like the smiles only come
when my feet are planted in the bottom mud
but i swim
i run around and look around
and think about him
i try to find a reason to be firm and still bend
and i swim
i can find enough energy to tread
just below the air covered edge
it's hard to keep a nose above
to suck in a salty breath
there's no motivation so i just stay soaking wet
so i swim
he has no reason to fight
so he thinks
he doesn't feel what i see
so he sinks
we take a breath and sink
we run out of breath in sync
it's not as deep as you think
it's just the kitchen sink
just pull the drain |
15. (Wearing Out) Wearing Thin
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i know someone that you know
hello it's me again
face to face and sharing skin
it's a sin we meet again
taken back and spat right out
wearing thin
inside it is all the same
we are the same
eye to eye and inner pain
it's a sin we meet again
it's just the three of us wearing out
and wearing thin
basking in it leaving town
passed the limit heading out
see you later for now it's just me
it's a sin we meet again
leaving town and heading out
wearing out and wearing thin |
16. Skull Bong
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she said i like the way those flowers look
inside your empty head
she thought she'd paint a picture
but i wrote this song instead
doesn't that beat all
i'm so lonely
i'm in a pitfall
lost and lonely
brick on a see saw
i'm so lonely
do you mind if i come inside
i'll cut my fucking ear off
and i'll send it in the mail
tomorrow to the promised land
with every unsaved whale |
17. Weird On Top
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for each problem send a silver dollar
each blink of the eye holds a thousand hours
there's a problem that needs fixing
because problems need fixing
there's no time left today for tomorrow
it's a chase but slowly unstoppable
to leave all this now would be wholly impossible
take the low light provided and
show off for the camera
take out the lens to make do
fly off into the sunset and
head west on a jet plane
take off your face to get through
it's better for all though all are still losing
there's nothing in this world that is worth the confusion
give and take and forget that is what i tell them
the only solution is to stop dreaming
take the high life denied and
live for the moment
throw away what you've got to get through
dry off under the sunset and
ride off on a fast train
hold your breath until you're blue |
18. I Could Wish
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if once around the world is not
too many times for you
come with me in the summer time
flying high in skies of blue
i wish that i could touch the sun
and reach the other side
meet me there my only friend
and hand in hand we'll fly
if this day could last forever
then i'd spend it all with you
with music in the air
there's nothing else i'd rather do
i wish that i could wash away
the things i've never seen
sometimes i wish that all of this
was just a twisted dream
but now that i'm alone
i think of you and often cry
i never said hello
but never meant to say goodbye
take take me back again
to the time when i was free
i wish the world would leave
and it'd be only you and me |
19. Altima Bud-Get
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i can't seem to recall
how things were two weeks ago
and now i know
that time can never move too slow
dream of me in flight
we'll be strangers for a second time tonight
i bet you thought you'd not
see me again well
here i am
let's take a walk tonight
and talk of kicking sand in the face of the man
talk of letting go and taking control
then our lives would be our own
speak for me tonight
in a week i'll die with a tear in my eye
i bet you thought you'd not see me again
well here i am
when utah takes a breath
the sky turns burning red
purple mountains up ahead
rear view sunset
goes away
say goodbye
to californ-i-a |
20. Better Still
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grunged out today
in last night's clothes
unbathed and unshaven
caring not that it shows
cluttered house
and crusted eyes
trying to shake the most
promising of replies
but here it comes
another desperate call
the subject's reflex
is another desperate stall
tell me a story
and speak to me in trust
show me creativity
and show me if you must
uninvited
and unaware of these things
a living tree
would never show it's rings
and that's what this is all about
an ornamental flaw
a family's disgrace
a preconstructed wall |